have you ever had one of those days where you felt as though you had nothing to offer the world around you? no real skills, no original or creative thought, no art, no strength, no desire, no passion, nothing? well, i'm having one of those months (or has it been years?). i'm questioning the whole job thing yet again. only a month or so into my piercing apprenticeship and i'm already questioning that choice. and something has definetly got to change in the renovation buisness. either i get a partner or work for somebody else. i don't even know if i can support my family working a normal construction job.

i wish i could be the maintenence man for a radical housing co-op. or start a buisness with a collective based on a participatory economic model. just something to explore the alternative. instead of hustling my way through the system.

yeah. damn The Man.

my knife is to my throat,
michael tawd